Growth and intention

I haven't posted recently. Quite frankly, there has been a lot going on in life. When I'm ready, I'll share that with you.

I'll be honest, I went back and forth with whether I really wanted to continue this blog. There are many days where I question whether this blog is truly making a difference. A large majority of time, I feel as though some people read these words and feel sorry for me. There's no need to feel sorry for me. Most importantly, this is a really big thing in my life to share.

Being vulnerable is really difficult for me.

Over the last month, I realized (for probably the tenth time) how impactful this blog can be ... as long as I put in the time. One of my intentions for 2020 is to be a little more open, post a little more often. So here's where we're starting.

As I looked at past posts, I feel some of them start off really dark and sad. I'll tell you, nine times out of 10, I write when I am in a dark place. This is one of the first posts where I'm truly in a good spot. I'm really happy right, and I have a lot to look forward to.

I've never been one to make New Year's resolutions simply because I break them just as fast as everyone else, so this year, I'm focusing on intentions.

Right before the new year, I came across this post on Instagram.

So I got to writing. I like writing things on paper to reflect on later. I wrote an answer for each of these to look back on.

2019 was a rough year, but I think it was only rough because I forced myself out of my comfort zone and occasionally embraced vulnerability. 2020 will be about even more growth; I know I have a long journey ahead of me. It won't be easy, but I know it'll be worth it.

One of my intentions for the new year is to be a little more present with this blog and on Instagram. I know I have a few friends who see my absence on Instagram as me being a little down. Truth is, they're not wrong. I want to make sure, though, I am open.

What I've really learned in 2019 is that talking and being open not only helps others, but it really helps me.

I have a few posts that I have had saved for months. I have a few that I've written, saved elsewhere but, otherwise, ready to go. I will get those out, but if there is anything you would like to know specifically, please send me an email. I am open to it if it will help others.

2020 will be growth with me. Let me help you make this a year of growth, too. We can do this all together.